I do not know about y'all but 2006 is starting out to be, uhh, what's the word? Let's just say some of us are looking forward to 2007. If anyone has a real bad start to a new year, then come on over.
Ash, my love, well, her cousin committed suicide. I just met him over Christmas weekend. That was soon after New Year's Day. Her uncle Scott was taken to the hospital for numerous surgeries. His daughter found him lying on the floor and if it wasn't for her, he would not have celebrated Christmas with Ash and her family. It was from his drinking and smoking. Ash's cousin who lives in Portland passed away then Ash's grandpa's wife's mother passed away and it does not end here. Ash's aunt's friend was killed in a car accident in Issaquah.
I feel for her family, seriously I do. I just hope I can be there for her and them in any way I can.
I also feel that I am gonna lose my mother within a couple of years. She has MS and it's been over a year since she was informed of it. I can see the toll it's taking on Mom. Hell, my Mom was spanking the shit outta me for a long while and now, she struggles to hold a fork and bring it to her mouth.
As for me, 2006 started out okay. I lost some weight. I started school. Ironically, for a man who is trying to improve on communication, I'm taking a class that focuses solely on communication and partnership.
Yesterday, Ash and I got into a fight. This year does not feel right at all, ya know.
Ya know, Ash keeps telling me to be careful and its for all the right reasons. I grew up doing stunts. I damn near broke my neck one time and my Mom saw the whole thing. I just know that every time I went to bed, my parents went outside to the shed and cursed at my BMX bike. I've gotten so many head concussions. I lost count. I don't remember. I ain't kidding. But this year, I'll be extra careful. Apparently, I got a lot of reasons to live for and two females are the reasons. My girlfriend and my daughter.
Silence she wants and silence she will get.
This year has got me thinking about alot of things.
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I hear ya there, bro.. this has been long year already for us too...it seems like for most people, this year as started off as.. well, off!! hopefully things will get easier as the year goes on.
I, too, worry about Mom. It's scary.. MS is a scary thing.. I can only imagine how Mom feels..
You're doing good- don't be too hard on yourself!
Love ya
Tres
Thanks for being there for me and my family. Miluji te! Our love for each other definitely out weighs our need. :-*
ps. I'm glad you're finding your way in ur blog.
i'm thinkin' alot too...
hang in there... only 11 more months.
xoxox saam
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